Dreams and Reality....

Tomorrow is graduation for my BSW!  I have worked so hard for this moment.  I am so glad my amazing husband, kids, parents, siblings and friends have supported my desire to go back to school.  

It has been hard to not have much time for things other than school that has been my biggest sacrifice.  But ONE more year and will have my MSW and I will get my life back!!

I really owe so much to my family!!  I missed out on a lot of activities and long for the day when I can not have to worry about school work.

Its funny how dreams work when your a parent.  Your dreams and hopes for your kids are huge but when the time comes for them to graduate high school or join the Air Force or start driving reality hits.  You are happy for them but the REALITY can be selfish.  I want my kids to stay young...it's hard to think of them moving on in life with out you. I have to trust we raised them good to be self sufficient and successful.

Now for an update on my New Life Revelation...(not revolution this time but a revelation!)

NO POP!! It has been about a week and a half and I am doing AWESOME!!  No cravings for it yet.
CUT BACK the sweets. I can not tell a lie, I have had some some not a lot.
I have lost 5 YES 5 pounds since starting my medication.  Oh Yea!

So here is where the revelation part comes in....
I have read a lot about Hyperthyroidism. The reality is that this will never go away.  So I will need medication my whole life which I totally detest.   I do not want to be dependent on medication to live a healthy life.

Dr. Oz has a great clip on how this affect weight and some possible signs if you may have it. I suggest watching this. The video on this is really good.

http://www.doctoroz.com/videos/hypothyroidism-why-youre-not-losing-weight

Another great link is:
http://www.mayoclinic.com/health/hypothyroidism/DS00353

WHEW!! What a week


No soda for a week.  Yep, thats right.  It is Zipfizz and water for this girl.  (My idea of water is Cascade Ice)
I feel better and SO proud of myself for not drinking pop.  


I spent the afternoon at Red Butte, part of my plan to get out doors more.  Thanks to my awesome hubby for getting us the annual pass so we can go up any time.  


I just hope all the medication kicks in soon- I want my old self back so bad. Let me rephrase, I want my YOUNG self back.  


It is so amazing and wonderful but very hard to see a change in season.  I was thinking today how soon my son will be graduating and talking about moving out and getting ready for the AirForce.   (holding the tears in)   It is so nice to see them grow and be independent but SO hard to let go of them.  And with my daughter driving soon....AHHH!  When did my babies grow up?

It has been forever since I have blogged, never been faithful to it.  BUT part of my new life revolution is to write about my challenges and successes!

For a long time (by long I mean 10+ years) I have been telling my doctor(s), I am unusually tired, along with weird weight gain and other issues. (We all know when there is something in our body that's not right) They all said exercise more and eat a high fiber breakfast!  What- Are you kidding me!  For so long, I never felt they took my concerns serious.

Well I found this amazing doctor who actually spent about an hour listening to my concerns.  She ordered some test and WALA....they found the problem.  Hypo-Thyroidism, low iron count and pre-diabetic.   SHOCK!

So along with the new medication that will get my body back on track. I decided to start a new life revolution!

First Step- Give up diet soda!!  This is so hard because working the graveyard shift- I need that caffeine. That is what makes me nice to those I work with :) Oh yea- It also tastes AMAZING!!  I am on day 2 with no pop.  No cravings for it yet.   The good part of this is I am drinking SO much more water.

Second Step- Get off my butt and exercise.  Again with constantly being tired from the thyroid and working graveyards AND going to school full time, it was hard to find the time and energy to do this.
I now realize that it is sooo important for my health.   My energy should return soon but I am still going to make it a point to get out and exercise once a day!  Even if that means park far away on campus and walk to class.

Third Step- Find a way to manage stress.  With my masters program starting soon, 16 credit hours, plus practicum, plus regular job. I need to make stress release a priority. (maybe my new exercise will help --lightbulb moment)

Fourth Step- Eat healthy!!! Plain and simple.

I'll be honest- I know I may sneak in a dessert here or there, or a pop. But that is what this blog is for- so I can recognize my weaknesses, ( I am human after all) and my strengths.

LET THE JOURNEY BEGIN.....